Disaster Date

I wanted to tell you sooner but I didn't want to jinx anything.

I couple months ago I signed up for online dating - I know I'm dirty minded but - there are a lot of perverted, gross people out there. My profile explains a bit about me but I left the disabilities out:

I'm a sucker for fairytales! I'm also a sucker for superhero (or supernatural) ANYTHING! 

I love to wear odd socks - fluffy or strippy or bright coloured (anything, just as long as it isn't plain). 

I love to make things, i make cards and invitations whenever my mummy decides it's time we have one :) but I not only make things out of glue and card. Very arts and craftsy. 

I love to bake as well, cakes are my favourite thing to bake (especially because I can lick the bowl out when I'm done :D. ) 

I have always loved poking things to find out how they work, i never read instructions - that's just plain silly. I mean really... who reads instructions. 

I love to take photographs of anything I possibly can. I carry my camera everywhere I go.... Now, i'm on a media course because of that, so I can use that as an excuse for my obsessive compulsion to take photos. I studied; photography, graphics, journalism, film, animation and advertising as a BTEC. I'm now at Uni studying Film Production 

I love watching films, anything except .... cant remember at the moment :S I have a large collection off DVDs and I try to go to the cinema anytime I can! According to my mum and my sister; there ISN'T a film out there that I wouldn't go and see.

I really like the retro geekyness :D 

I'm sure i'm nerdy but oh well :) "Give a nerd a hug today"... I'm always available for huggles :D 

I AM STRANGE... but that's the fun of - well, my sillyness! :)

I did find a small few guys who were really nice. When I felt comfortable talking to guys for a while I explained that I have to be in a wheelchair but I can walk around a bit. None of them seemed to have a problem with it.

One guy was really friendly so I added him on Facebook where we chatted more which led to texting (every day, all day for 7 weeks) I thought we were getting along nicely, flirting, me sitting and waiting for the next text, talking about what we do each day, making jokes, watching tv shows together over the internet. When I told him I had POTS he stopped talking for a while so I thought I scared him off but he was looking it up to understand it better which made me like him even more.

On Saturday, we originally arranged to have a picnic but being England over the couple days before Saturday I thought it would be better to meet in Costa and then go to the arcade and bowling (I over did it but I wanted to prove I could do things).

The whole date was AWKWARD!! I know we spoke everyday but this was the first time we actually met each other. He had his trousers up to his waist, he spoke strangely (a bit stiff), very touchy feely, always giving me hugs (huggles which normally ended up with his shoulder in my neck or me getting hurt from his tight hugs that hurt my back, hitting my face on his shoulder or his face) and when I was bowling (for which I did not win any of them) he started rubbing my shoulders [in a 'you can do this thing].

I was there for two and a half hours, which is the time I agreed on with my sister to pick me up and I felt bad. As soon as we went our separate ways he sent me a nice text saying how he had a lovely time. I didn't text him back until the next day, I felt sooooo bad. he's texted me since and his latest text was:

"I've obviously upset you in some way and I'm really sorry about it. I must have come across differently in person than the impression you'd gotten from chatting, so I'm also sort that I didn't appear to be the guy you thought I might be. It was nice, but I accept that you're not keen on chatting anymore, whether you can put your finger on the reason or not. I really will leave you alone forever."

I feel awful but I didn't want to lead him on; it even felt awkward to chat to him... I hated being so cold-hearted but I thought it was for the best to just let it go. I dislike doing that to anyone.

I hope I have better luck with guys another time.

What's your worst date, guy and reactions to your illnesses?

*huggle* for everyone!!!!

After Easter It'll be Easier

So, I went back to Uni after Easter; I wasn't completely better but I felt I had to go back. It wasn't as if I had loads of classes. I just had to meet with my tutor - for which I was extremely anxious about - and do my last essay.

I had the meeting, and silly me, I cried. I was so scared I was going to get kicked off the course because I have had some trouble (mostly on shoot). I did manage to clear things up; I told her that my written work hasn't had anything lower than a C and I try really hard in Pre-Production. I also showed her my passion for film and what I want to specialise in (super excited about that).

Now, the essay.... I kept putting it off; my brain doesn't seem  to let me work if the deadline is too far in the future - I just can't focus. I did get the essay done in a matter of hours, 3 days before the deadline. In fact, I even got interested in it. The research was very boring until I found the information relating to my subject.

I had to read Pam Cook's Review of Bram Stoker's Dracula (1992) and choose one thread of it. Then I had to watch previous Dracula films to write about how it pays homage to them and how it differentiates itself from them. I also had to relate theories on remakes and homages.

I choose to focus on the sexual content in it. Even though the sexual content in the previous Dracula films aren't as explicit they still had sexual content within them that could've been seen as risqué at the time. (sorry I'm getting distracted by the essay thingy)

I had very little classes so I got very bored, but for some reason I didn't see an awful lot of my friends :S very peculiar. I did get to spend some time with my flatmates :) which was nice because I won't be living with most of them next year.

Last week I did have a few very bad days. I went horribly floopy - so much so I couldn't walk to the bathroom with is 5 steps from my bed. (how bad is that!) My flat mate Charlotte (who is one of my closest friends now) and her boyfriend were nice enough to keep an eye on me when my carer left; they stayed in my room and watched a movie with me until I zonked out.

I finished uni last monday so I am now on my summer break until mid-September.

I have some fluffy (fluffy means happy, good, nice) stuff coming up so I shall keep you updated.

Speak soon

*huggle* for everyone!!!